So here I am, almost a month away from being 39 years old and it has occurred to me over the past few days….Man my 30’s suuuuucked!!! This is no poor me, but it’s a fact. For the year I have left of being in my 30’s, I will be preparing for my 40’s. I am determined to reinvent myself for this new decade….after all, I hear 40’s are the new 25!
I’m losing weight, keeping those close to me even closer, stressing over things that “matter”. I can’t lose sleep over what something Trump may have said that day. Speaking of sleep…I will sleep better. I need to be present and really take a look at myself in the mirror and analyze it. No more taking a glance, wincing, and stepping away. This is serious. My kids are only getting older and a whole new set of “stages” will be occurring. I need to be at my best….for myself and for my kids. I want holidays to feel special again. It’s a shame that at the sweet innocent ages that my kids are now, they have the grinchiest mother out there. It’s just not the same and I will change that.
I’m making this sound easy aren’t I?! I am even convincing myself!! But in all seriousness, all of this won’t happen at the stroke of midnight of me turning 40. I know it’s going to take work, but I want to enjoy this work. I want a life I don’t need a vacation from. “But everyone has issues and no one’s life is perfect”, you say! This is true and I don’t disagree with you, but it will all be how I handle things going forward. No more “why does this shit always happen to me” attitude. It will now be “okay, this is how I’m going to handle this”. My aim is not to be perfect…my aim is to enjoy my life and all the craziness it entails.
Picture by: Kylie Aquino
It’s Monday…Yay! Said no one ever! We are all groggy, cranky, sleepy….hell we could be the seven dwarfs. But we gotta chug along and make the day count, no matter how hard it is getting out of our nice comfy beds. (Sounds good right!)
Ready…chant “We can do this”! I’m stretching it aren’t I?! Anyway..here’s some motivation for your Monday morning!
2 hours later…I’m not kidding!
Okay you know what’s harder than finding Monday motivation…doing it on a Sunday night. Yeah…I’m going to switch gears. Sorry folks! Motivation meter is way down low.
I’ve got a sick kid with strep throat that I’m hoping doesn’t spread to the rest of us. I went into the doctor’s office Sunday morning and it was packed like a bunch of sardines and warm…like no air flow. I sat there, dying on the inside, the germ-o-phobe within me was itching to come out and run my ass out of there. As the well child is asking me “can I play with your phone? can I play with your phone? can i play with your phone” Really?! You would like to play with my phone while you lay across the seats that all the sick people are sitting in and probably picking your nose. Yes…sure..I’m okay with that! Bleh! So needless to say my list of things “to do” for Sunday, got kinda screwed up. By the time I got home, patience level was way down and I felt like I needed a nap…hahaha how funny of a thought is that though!?!
Well I will be home with the sick child today, so maybe I can finish what I didn’t get to yesterday. The other thing I need to get my ass in gear about is homework. ALL weekend I stared at my screen. Why is it I can just sit here and write nonsense, yet when given a question from my teacher, I look at the computer screen like I forgot how to read! Irritates the heck out of me! See this is where my chants come into play…I have to motivate myself to actually work on something really important. “I can do this!” How much coffee can one drink before it’s considered bad…like in one day??
Okay I’m sure you have had enough of reading this as I am of writing it. I do truly hope you have a decent Monday!
oh P.S. I usually don’t write on Tuesday’s, but I wanted to remind you all that it’s National Lumpy Rug Day tomorrow. Go sit on your lumpy rug with a glass of wine and embrace it! #NationalLumpyRugDay Seriously, I don’t make this stuff up!
Picture by: Susan Ackeridge Lic: CC