So here I am, almost a month away from being 39 years old and it has occurred to me over the past few days….Man my 30’s suuuuucked!!! This is no poor me, but it’s a fact. For the year I have left of being in my 30’s, I will be preparing for my 40’s. I am determined to reinvent myself for this new decade….after all, I hear 40’s are the new 25!
I’m losing weight, keeping those close to me even closer, stressing over things that “matter”. I can’t lose sleep over what something Trump may have said that day. Speaking of sleep…I will sleep better. I need to be present and really take a look at myself in the mirror and analyze it. No more taking a glance, wincing, and stepping away. This is serious. My kids are only getting older and a whole new set of “stages” will be occurring. I need to be at my best….for myself and for my kids. I want holidays to feel special again. It’s a shame that at the sweet innocent ages that my kids are now, they have the grinchiest mother out there. It’s just not the same and I will change that.
I’m making this sound easy aren’t I?! I am even convincing myself!! But in all seriousness, all of this won’t happen at the stroke of midnight of me turning 40. I know it’s going to take work, but I want to enjoy this work. I want a life I don’t need a vacation from. “But everyone has issues and no one’s life is perfect”, you say! This is true and I don’t disagree with you, but it will all be how I handle things going forward. No more “why does this shit always happen to me” attitude. It will now be “okay, this is how I’m going to handle this”. My aim is not to be perfect…my aim is to enjoy my life and all the craziness it entails.