#9 Every Breath You Take

#9 Every Breath You Take

Dan and D at the Beach

Since you’ve gone I been lost without a trace

I dream at night I can only see your face

I look around but it’s you I can’t replace

I feel so cold and I long for your embrace

I keep crying baby, baby, please

(Song by: The Police)

I have dreams about Dan, but they are always the same….he comes back.  Nothing has changed in what happened in “our story”, but he comes back and I have to update him on everything that has changed in the last 4 years.  It usually starts the same, we are incredibly happy, missing each other, he can’t get over how the boys have grown….but it always goes back to a bad place…every single time.

I would love to have a dream where he talks to me.  Tells me something, gives me some type of message.  I have gone to see Mediums and he has “come through” each time.  Sometimes I believe…sometimes I don’t.  Are they just saying things to help me have peace and move on?  Is he really in the room with us giving her a message for me?  Honestly, I don’t know what to believe, except it brings me back 4 years ago and it’s painful.  I will now rely on finding those random pennies and days when every corner I turn I see a white BMW….he is with me.

Our wedding song was “I Could Not Ask for More”, well I think about it now….I could ask for more…a lot more.  Please don’t leave…and I mean that in so many ways.

~ K

2 thoughts on “#9 Every Breath You Take

  1. My husband has been gone for almost four years now and I can count that I’ve only had six dreams of him. The first one was so short and we were just hugging and he was telling me he’s fine and ok. Another one I had I begged the night before to come to me and he did. Again very short but he had this bright light around him and he was laughing and looked so peaceful. I couldn’t get to him. The other ones were horrible nightmares that he was alive and with us and then tragically dies again. It was horrible to wake up from these nightmares. Like a horrible reminder that he’s gone forever.

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    1. Thank you for sharing Melinda! I’m so sorry you are going through the same thing. You are very lucky for those first few dreams where you could hug him and know he’s ok. Treasure those deep in your heart. This was my hope for this blog that I could interact with people going through the same thing and give each other tips on how they cope.

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