Since you’ve gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it’s you I can’t replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please
(Song by: The Police)
I have dreams about Dan, but they are always the same….he comes back. Nothing has changed in what happened in “our story”, but he comes back and I have to update him on everything that has changed in the last 4 years. It usually starts the same, we are incredibly happy, missing each other, he can’t get over how the boys have grown….but it always goes back to a bad place…every single time.
I would love to have a dream where he talks to me. Tells me something, gives me some type of message. I have gone to see Mediums and he has “come through” each time. Sometimes I believe…sometimes I don’t. Are they just saying things to help me have peace and move on? Is he really in the room with us giving her a message for me? Honestly, I don’t know what to believe, except it brings me back 4 years ago and it’s painful. I will now rely on finding those random pennies and days when every corner I turn I see a white BMW….he is with me.
Our wedding song was “I Could Not Ask for More”, well I think about it now….I could ask for more…a lot more. Please don’t leave…and I mean that in so many ways.