Confession: I hide in the bathroom when the kids are settling into bed and I put on Pandora, start taking my make-up off, and just close my eyes and take a breath.
A song came on tonight, (that happens to be the same artist as the one that sang my wedding song), and I kept hearing this phrase “Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger”. This cannot be more true! On my worst days, when I finally get out of that funk, I know things will be okay.
I have become strong and trust me, I am not bragging about it. It happened out of necessity. I was always a follower, I admit it. I’m not going to say I’m a leader now, but I am growing in that direction. It’s the little things like attending a wedding by myself, taking myself to the airport for a business trip, setting up appointments with contractors, buying a car….these are things that I’ve either had Dan with me or have him take the lead on. I started dating Dan when I was 16….that’s practically half of my life….always with him by my side.
I’ve always been on the independent side….I always wanted a job, starting with babysitting at the age of 12…can you imagine!? I typed up a paper offering my babysitting services and put them in my neighborhood mailboxes. Then as soon as I turned 16, I was right at the mall filling out applications. I liked having my own money….my own independence. I guess in a way, this was all a part of building my future. I’ve been independent, living on my own for 4 years, and hey….we are all still alive!!! I must be doing something right.
I leave you with Myles’ quote of the day, “Mom, how can you laugh and scream at the same time?” I responded with “It’s a secret talent I have”. As I later thought about what a person would look like laughing and yelling at the same time….. Psycho came immediately to mind!! I lose my sh*t, but hey, we can all laugh about it later, right?! There’s only so many times I can tell a kid to put his shoes on in the morning to catch the bus! I’m open to new suggestions on techniques besides hiding in the bathroom…LOL!
#tbt One of my favs of D meeting Myles for the first time 🙂 Enjoy!